Doing my best

I have recently been ignoring God and letting myself go with the flow of life. I have been finding myself frustrated with a multitude of things that I want to change and do. I have been trying to live a Christ centred life without Christ.... I have been letting myself fall into the lies of the world and of the devil and I haven't been trusting in God at all. Needless to say , i am done. I am done conforming  to the world. I am done trying  to be socially acceptable. A few minutes ago I just finished watching a sermon by Francis Chan called Giving God my best. It was the kick in the pants that I have been needing to hear. He talked about how we go to church and pray before bed and think God is in heaven saying oh what an angel. We think that if we just take an hour or so a week to go to church and worship when we feel inclined then we are all good. But doesn't God deserve our best. The whole time he was speaking I couldn't stop thinking how much I want to give God my best. How much I thirst to be in a close and deep relationship with the creator of everything. I started to think about what was stopping me and realized that I am lazy and I am so afraid of falling and beomeing an outcast, but this should't matter. Everyday I should get up and be thankful that I am breathing. I have decided to stop conforming to the world and become who I am made to be in Christ. My first step is a kind of fast i suppose. I spend a lot of my time watching movies and TV. I am no longer going to be watching any TV instead I am going to use that time to be in relation with God and praying, worshiping and diving into His word. I am excited and terrified at the same time. I am ready to know what its like to be a true disciple but I am also scared about being taken out of my comfort zone. I am ready for God to take my life wherever he pleases. I am ready to let the world around me, see me for who I truly am in Christ. Its a tough journey, but I am ready. I encourage you not to get stuck in a rut and dig yourself deep. Realize who we praise and who created us and begin to serve Him every second of everyday. I am only here because He willed me to be, so I am going to give God my best.  Prayer would most definitly be appreciated.

God bless you all 

~Alannah.M.L.H